I realize that I haven’t been motivated to write anything new for a very long time. I hit a writer’s block and I felt that I had expressed all that I could being a 60’s Scoop Survivor. But truth be told, there will always be something to be said about the experiences of surviving Cultural Identity Genocide in Canada. I needed time and more life experiences in order to create something new to share.
So, here’s what’s new.
I am still healing from the psychological trauma impacts of being a survivor of losing my self-identity and cultural identity. so, I asked myself lately, how did I overcome this horrible reality. I had to dismantle or deconstruct the lies, deceptive beliefs that others had placed in my young mind as a girl. This took a long period of time, in fact, it took years to realize that I am not what happened to me.
If I were to give a workshop on Re-framing Indigenous Identity, it would be a challenge. why? because everyone has different threshold’s of what they can engage with. 60’s Scoop survivors have quite a diversity of struggles and strengths. What worked out for me to reclaim my identity may not work for others. My narrative is quite long about how I reclaimed my indigenous identity, in fact, I didn’t even know I was searching for it. How weird is that?
If I could narrow it down to bottom line. I would say that it was my education and reconnecting with my culture that led me to embrace the process it took to re-frame my identity. For most of my life, I never questioned my ethnicity. I was raised in all-white community, I went to school with all-white kids. I’m only now waking up to the fact that I thought I was white for most of my life. I recently moved to an all-white french speaking community. For the first time in my life, I wondered how I was going to fit in. I worried about the future, how would the community react, would they accept me, (English speaking Indigenous woman) I was worried for nothing. I also recently realized that I’ve become more self-conscious of my ethnicity for the first time in my life. I now ask myself when sales people or strangers act unfriendly or unkind, are they just being a bitch or are they racist? OMG, maybe I’ve just been living under a rock for most of my life. So, here I am writing about the new life phase of myself becoming more sensitive about my self-identity and cultural identity.
I’m getting comfortable about talking about my cultural identity as its part of the work I do now as a 60’s Scoop advocate and Trauma recovery coach/consultant. I share my experiences of what it was like being a 60’s Scoop survivor. I now share that I went through an epic journey of self discovery. I’m just getting better and better at inspiring my audience.
Come back again soon, I’m just getting started talking about Identity.